Freaki612
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I´ve been thinking about deleting my DA account due to the lack of activity. Years ago when i decided to sign in i thought about posting my daily sketches, draws and artworks. But it is not being the case so far and i don´t feel satisfied with my works neither.
I have a lot of paintings and drawings i made but i don´t post most of them because i don´t like them. I used to be always inspired and much more passionate before than i do right now. I didn´t have the best skills in that time, but at least i tried and sometimes the results were quite interesting. I used to post a few of my works from that time, but i have deleted most of them because they were quite different from what i´m doing now and i was not so proud. I must confess i improved a little since then, but it still missing something.
I don´t understand why i have always been receiving complements from people about my drawings (in real life) when in reality i´m not that good. Seriously, i´m NOT. Stop that! And i know it, i don´t get that much feedback here when i post something. At least i would like to have some reviews, critiques and something else besides adding to favorites and basic comments ( you know, the usual "i like it"). I think it would help me somehow. Critiques are important sometimes. But i´ve been noticing that most of my watchers are not even there for me.
I´m no artist and i don´t feel like an artist anymore. I´m feeling rather useless, because i would like to take my works to another level but i feel i´m not good enough. And currently disappointed with myself for many reasons. For long time i been feeling mentally and artistically blocked. That may be a result of a certain unhappiness and feelings of emptiness due to recent happenings, but solitude should be helping me to focus and keeping myself inspired and functional, instead of restraining.
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